When I was a senior in high school, I freaked the freak out about what I should do with my life.
This was my problem…
You know how some people just KNOW what they want to do? & they go on to pick a major or career in that field so that they can do it. & then there’s other people who haven’t quite figured it out yet, so they go into college as undecided, or take some time to explore options.
Yeah, those are pretty much the two categories of people, right?! Well, I was in the first category–without a doubt. With everything in me, I felt a call to chase after something, but the little voice in my head said differently.
It whispered that my path seemed risky. Who knew if I could make it work? What would other people think? Etc etc etc.
It was a mini WW3 inside me. Me, who just wanted to get to graduation, felt totally torn with what to do after. Of course, I knew what I wanted & I also had an inkling of what God wanted, but there went the little voice again… “heck no Grace, you can’t do that.”
I decided to give myself an ultimatum because eventually, I’d have to either go full-force & follow my dreams or back-down & give up.
I was at my wits end one week & just wanted to make a decision as to where I’d go & what I’d do. I was kinda sold on business (I’m a total business nerd & cannot get enough of that stuff). The question then, was, if I’d keep writing/blogging/seeing where God would take the whole Letcha Light Shine thing. I kinda felt like giving up because who knew if it was actually worthwhile or making a difference. But then again, I was passionate about it beyond measure.
The thoughts went back & forth. One day I skipped school because I was so stressed about all of it. I had to run an errand, so I hopped in my car. On my way home, I remembered that it was officially Pumpkin Spice Latte season at McDonald’s. I didn’t want anything, but I knew my mom would be stoked. With a split second before continuing on straight, I whipped my car into the turn lane & drove into the drive-thru.
I probably looked like a bus had hit me because the morning was full of tears. I’m pulling from the first window to the second and I see one of the employees look at me. I pull up to the second window and he is running up to catch me before I grab the latte and bolt.
He sprints to the window & opens it up. Wide-eyed, he looked at me & was like “YOU’RE LETCHA LIGHT SHINE?!”
I responded “yeah I am,” kinda embarrassed that I was 1000% a disaster that morning. To which he responded the exact words I needed to hear. He told me that he loved following along & reading my posts. He felt inspired & encouraged from it all & said I’d do great things.
“OK GOD ARE YOU KIDDING ME,” was my exact thought at that moment. From what he had just said & from the latte spilling all over my lap.
That same day I chose to go to Xavier, I found a program that felt right, & I said: “OK God, fine, I’ll do it.” It’s funny how much has changed since then, but one thing has remained true & pushed me in every single phase:
I cannot waste a single second feeling like my purpose & God’s plans are optional to follow. & sister, if you’re here reading this, the same darn thing goes for you.
If you feel a push to do something, DO IT.
If you feel a push to take a road less traveled, TAKE IT.
If you feel a push to create something, CREATE IT.
If you feel a push to make a certain decision, MAKE IT.
If you feel a push to change something, CHANGE IT.
I was setting my dreams & God’s call to the side because of my own darn insecurities, so he used a guy in the McDonald’s drive-thru to get my head on straight. To this day, one of the greatest blessings. God works in good good ways, & has good good plans.
Don’t ignore them, girl… please.